Something About Those Eyes
Something About Those Eyes is the last song I wrote about my mother’s alcohol addiction. It’s about the intoxication you see in an addicts’ eyes. It showcases a desctructive rebellious attitude that says “if you can do this, I can do it too, I’ll show you how much it hurts to lose someone to alcohol”, like “I’m gonna do this to you now!”
Without the lyrics you wouldn’t be able to tell the severity of the song. It sounds so sweet, so light and innocent.
Complete Timeline
July 9th, 2019
One Minute is about the feeling of betrayal and abandoment, how your world changes in one minute. It’s about feeling unloved because alcohol is prioritized over you. It was the first song I ever uploaded to Spotify
September 24th, 2019
Bottled Up is a more suicidal song about how the addiction got to me. I felt scared, trapped and didn’t see a way out of the situation.
October 15th, 2019
I guess I lost my mama is about the monster she becomes when she drinks and how my mom ceases to exist in those moments. We had to be around her because she was the breadwinner. But on the other hand there was so much pain and manipulation, so much keeping up appearances, puttin on a show.
March 13th, 2020
What If I’m Right is about founding out about another relapse again, about how she was destroying my life and about the realisation that I had to treat myself better and find a better coping mechanism.
September 7th, 2020
Lyrics
Got an invitation to a drinking party
I will down all these bottles
Cause that’s what you’ve taught me
I’ll follow your footsteps into sweet disaster
But don’t you worry
Cause I won’t remember
Cause I am just like the person I loved
Don’t you see it now
No matter the damage I put on myself
It’s you who’ll make me drown
Something about those eyes
Got me all in my head
Got me wondering
If there’s some kind of sign that I’m missing
No need for you to hide
You are on my mind
All the fucking time
When I look in your eyes
I see all of the ways that you lie
Bitch you lie to me, lie
Bet you lie to me, lie
Bet you lie to me right now, right now
Lie, bitch you lie to me
Lie, bet you lie to me
Lie, bet you lie to me right now, right now